Well hello dA-ers [the people i abandoned here] D;
anyways. its offical. im married. no joke. with my boyfriend. Justin Chou~ <3

Updates.

My computer broke. Yes the one melanie gave me. {my sister the nerd WHO GOT INTO SOME WERID COLLEGE IN WASHIONGTON IDK WHERE I FORGOT?!!?} Im getting a new one next week;


Oh right, congratz, mel.

Secondly, i failed 3 out of 5 midterms. Real nice, huh? Not.

I suffered alot from that midterm fail...i need to do better and not let my feelings drive me crazy. Depression.

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I feel realy sad these days.. because i feel like ive lost alot of friends. Danny, for one. Hes always so busy and the other day he told me "not to lean on me" too much...i miss his jokes, his support...

Also, i have been fighting with my best friends at school alot lately. They get mad at me, i get mad at them, then i regret what i said to them in my anger fit.

Then i make myself cry so much...


Anyways... no more depressing talk. If i ruined your day, i ish sorry : O






Heres something i stole from my sister's page. ~xxWhiteSpell

Info
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[x] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. [Brown.]
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses. [i wear contacts too.]
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. [Alot, actually. They keep going "you're hot"...]
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents. [never.. ill get punished and abused]
[ ] I've run away from home. [Ive tried to.]
[x] I've been kicked out of the house. [ i cried so much...]
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday. [yeah. with my boyfriend <3]
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[x] I'm in school [Chapel Fields. you get detention for every minor thing you do.]
[x] I have a job [5$ per hour.]
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. [always. In Coach's class (bible) cuz its just so boring]
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[x] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[ ] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.

Embarrassment
[ ] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[ ] I've snorted while laughing.
[ ] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something. [im an artist. artists are messy. i glue my hair alot.]
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. [Im hearing impaired.]
[ ] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ } I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox. [surprisingly, ive never had chicken pox.]

Traveling
[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[x] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to China.
[x] I've been to Malasyia
[ ] I've been to Nevada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Hawaii. [ i wish.]
[ ] I've been to Idaho.
[x] I've been to Taiwan. [used to live there with my family.]
[x] I've been to Japan. [4 times or so.]
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.


Experiences
[ ] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. [spirit week.]
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. [ive kicked a guy on purpose in that place 5 times.]
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle. [ i was forced to kiss some random guy at my school.]
[x] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.[i finished it in less than 10 mins, actually.]
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing. [Ah, the New York snow.]
[ ] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. [ the first time i saw snow in 6 years. what did you expect me to do?]
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken. [what the hell is this O.o]
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi. [many times. alone.]
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] I've eaten sushi. [ i LOVE sushi. i eat it everyday.]
[x] I've been snowboarding. [Very, Very fun :] ]

Relationships
[ ] I'm single.
[x] I'm in a relationship. [JUSTINNNNNNN~]
[x] I'm engaged. [Justin <3]
[ ] I'm married. [soon!!!]
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [alot of times...]
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. [yeah. i do that alot...]
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler. [ i cuddle with my boyfriend alot.]
[x] I've been kissed in the rain. [by my ex. really romantic...<3]
[ ] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house. [to go to a dance when i wasnt allowed to.]
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game. [im a badass.]
[x] I've cheated on a test.[i got caught and got detention... parents called in. i was depressed.]
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[ ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. [Yeah.]
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed. [ i usally let others know when im depressed.]
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic. [ i throw up after all my meals.]
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. [lazy/unwanting to get up]
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose. [ sometimes i just want to end all this...pain]
[x] I've woken up crying. [alot of times. When i was child abused, i did this alot.]

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying. [my neighbor had cancer. I saw him die.]
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide. [my best friend...]
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide. [alot of times. my friends stopped me.]
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x]I own an iPod or MP3 player. [ i had 6 ipods in total. they either broke or died. somehow.]
[x I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I own something from Esprit.
[x] I collect comic books.
[x]I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.


Random
[x] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[x] I love Spam. [cuz i spam myself. lol.]
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[ ] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. [lol i am always on the computer.]
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[ ] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

[x] All of those are answered honestly.


There. the random poll i stole from my sister.

Anyways... i guess Life in New york has been rubbing in on me....


*Peace Out*

-Mystaudict.